I have been busy the past two weeks. I took quite a drive with our youngest and my Mom down to a family funeral. It was good to spend time with my Mom and out of my routine. it culminated in picking up the oldest DD from college and bringing her home for the summer.
We are now in wedding count down. I am also teaching a child to drive…. or rather sitting in the front passenger seat trying NOT to say too much or too little. I know I get frustrated and that the learner driver is also frustrated. It appears to be a season of letting go, freedom and flying. 
I struggle with this as God prepares my heart to let these kids he has allowed us to raise fly free. It is difficult to not get into the full on parenting mode that has been the practice for so many years. I find myself apologizing for my words as they tend to spill out before I can truly realize what I am saying. They are old enough to make these decisions. They have a good strong foundation. It is bittersweet. Bitter because it is time and sweet because for they are ready (for the most part!) The younger two have opted to spend time as a family rather than head off to camp right before the wedding. They are best friends, well, most of the time. They know it will never be quite the same again. There will never be just the four of them under our roof.
We also know it will never be quite the same but we are looking forward with great excitement to the future as we wait to see what unfolds in their lives. It is going to be a beautiful wedding. We love our future daughter in law and know that she is a perfect match for our son without being perfect, because after all who really is perfect! Not me and definitely not anyone in this house.
This is what I have been thinking lately and it has been hard to put into words. I have been crocheting like crazy and buying fabric for the shop. I have just not taken the time to get anything finished to show or sometimes even started. Weed pulling, gardening, flower pots and making apple sauce, apple jelly and apple pie filling have filled my time lately. I added in a few photos of the irises that bloom in the yard and the petunias that we added to the new flower pots this year. We had a storm go thru last night and the flowers look a little battered but they are still blooming and that is the lesson to me. We are not going to look at the yard that needs to be mowed or the porch that seems a little cluttered. There is always something that needs to be done and sometimes we just have to let it go.
talk to you later,
Karen
I wrote this last week and the house has been cleaned and the yard mowed!
